So much the sideline
on a straining leash,
Brought to heel
Time and again
With a swift kick in the ribs.
Winded, panting, and
But still straining
Against the guideline
Obeying the wild inside.
I am tempted to yank that choke chain
With brute force
Every single time
I find myself trying to teach this old dog new tricks.
I have subsequently learnt:
The dog of desire can lend us some manners.
Some real community manners.
Those that do not over-consider one man against another
Those that see the expanse for what it is.
Because what it is, is important to know.
Like why a dog can lick its own lipstick.
The rooster of lust can tend our handlers.
Like pitbulls fight,
Handlers must be handled in the first place.
Then they can handle their lust.
To become at ease in one’s primal hide
One must wear it first.
To understand a dog, a cat, a duck in one’s home
One must first open one’s home to all these creatures.
Even to a snake, a pig. A whole family of cockroaches.
It is a good lesson in who is bigger than who.
A heart feels desire, lust, passion, primal truth.
Imagine what a job it must have keeping these secrets.
Night time at The Circus is the most exciting.
It is when the vampires come to watch. They lust for blood.
They know the wild comes out at night.
There is fire.
The Circus is in a fortunate position. Its blood-trade is spectacle.
Its lineage, too. That is why it is fortunate.
It can pull crowds with its people.
The circus people are like fairground people.
There are none like them.
Luckily for the wild animals The Circus can soon excuse them from service.
Most human beings understand their plight.
Their ‘wildness’ has worn off, anyway. They are tarnished. Has-beens.
Where is the magic in a has-been? If you are honest you will admit there is none.
If you are not convinced then take time to walk around after the show.
Peruse the cages. The stakes.
Notice the eyes of the wild animals. They are dead.
Know that is because they no longer dream.
The subject of the ringmaster is bound to come up. He is a hot topic.
He has begged off again, citing a scratch from one of the big cats.
An infection. Perhaps he will die of tiger?
More likely he will die of scorn. Or rumours.
Whichever, one more no-show and he is out.
There is a three-strike rule for ringmasters.
Of course there is his understudy. There is always an understudy.
Luckily a voice-over is a voice-over no matter who presents.
The ringmaster’s absence does not mean The Circus does not run.
It just manages itself differently.
The wild animals get a night of zoo-treatment. They do not get a night off.
Flashing cameras. Squeals. Pussy-pussy-pussy.
Watch the elephants rocking. Back and forth, back and forth.
They are not dancing, no. They are screaming.
For their captors these screams are not good news.
For the ringmaster, a depression with the elephants is especially bad news.
He is the clown when they refuse later to work for his voice.
Porn is a bigger problem than you perhaps realise. Kids under 10 are looking at it – girls, as well as boys. It is not just looking at it that is a problem. Reading it can be a problem, too, if you read hardcore copy. Porn bends heads. It scares girls, wakes up Pandora. Porn has extraordinary power and it needs to be kept away from children. It damages them. You will have to accept that we will not eradicate porn from this world, but it should be better regulated. Adults who enjoy porn should look a little deeper into their sex. They will probably find that on a level their sex is hectic, but empty. How much transgression can you watch going on before you start to transgress as part of an everyday? What you watch becomes your reality. Choose carefully what thoughts you fill your head with. There is a lot of depraved thinking going on in the minds of boys and men and there are enough loose women desperate enough to comply with their desires. This needs dealing with. I am not suggesting that it is only men, either. Women these days have seriously questionable morals – they are as much into whoring as the men are. A lot of women are predators. A lot of men are corruptors of innocence, they get off on turning you into a bad girl for their entertainment. Watch for them. Porn has bred whoring. Be watchful, too, for money-whores. There are a great many of those in our world. Porn is the difference between a ‘fuck’ and making love. Love lets you know everything you need to know about making it. A ‘fuck’ is nothing. Know that a lot of men out there are fucking women for a living. They tell the women what they need to hear – lies, usually, and they ply them with alcohol to loosen their inhibitions and get into their pants. Women are not good at drinking too much and keeping their pants on. A woman who needs love (and there are a lot of those in our world) wants to believe the random man whispering in her ear actually cares about her and she opens willingly to his approach. Easy. Know that he does not care. He is taking from her her grace, her innocence. Bit by bit. As a woman, please do not be under the illusion – ever – that when you let a man into your pants after three minutes that it is love. It never, ever is. It is purely physical. You are a sex toy. Understand this when you want to make sense of your life.
We need to replace porn with erotica. Erotica is hot, porn is not. Erotica is different – lust is a reality for every single one of us. Carnal lust. The carnal lust that drives the animal in all of us will surprise us with its power time and again. If you fail to recognise the animal in you, you are missing vital information from your understanding of life. Know that love and lust do go hand in hand. Both are instincts. Love and lust are bed-fellows in good relationships. If you do not feel lust, or cannot feel lust – then something is wrong with your sex. You must investigate what is not right in your love life. It is time to look at what you expect from sex, what you require from sex and what you are not getting. If you are not getting love – just a few hours of physical intimacy with a stranger – then your sex life is pretty pointless, it has to be said. You should perhaps change the way you go about doing what you do.
Sex should not become boring. Boring is dangerous. Comfortable is fine, but avoid boring because it leads to transgression. Boring means you need to reconsider your relationship before you do something that is going to jeopardise it. Kids must learn young what sex is about and what it is for. Important – it is not only for procreation, for god’s sake. It is there for pleasure. If kids should hear the wrong thing about sex in the first place, this is an issue. Teach them right. Porn tells a wrong story and it should not be their introduction.
If you aspire to – or do – live like a porn star in your real life then understand that you are the kind of person that is destroying the equilibrium in this world, i.e. the peace. Please stop it. People who use others for sex are selfish. You do not ever use somebody for sex. And you do not ever take someone’s sex from them. EVER. You respect that sex is a demonstration of love – not simply a quick way to get your rocks off or boost your self-esteem. Ironically, random sex will not boost your self-esteem. It will eat away at your insides. You throw your name away each time you do it.