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About C.J. Birch

I was born on Thursday 13th July 1972 in Harare, Zimbabwe, to an English father and a South African mother. I was christened Catherine Jane Birch and - from the outset - I've been inquisitive about most of life's elemental questions; its myriad paradoxes and unpredictable anomalies, their sources, solutions and their propensity for unmitigated change. From a very young age I was captured by the enigmatic life process, the challenge of living and what it 'means' to be alive. I spent countless invaluable hours in nature, watching the world at its work. I had a fascination for everything around me, curious about what things were, how and why they worked, what they represented in relation to one another. I began writing at the age of 5. Journals, stories and poetry, illustrations, have been a constantly evolving source of quiet self-reflection, expansive expression throughout my life. I'm fortunate to have travelled many miles, to have visited a variety of differing destinations and though I've learned a lot about life in the last 50 years, my questions about its complexities are neverending. I currently live in the south-east of England, having returned to the United Kingdom after a particularly harrowing period of 7 allegedly 'invisible' or 'non-existent' years of absolute hell in Kwazulu Natal, South Africa. I've decided to erase those memories, altogether. My 15-year-old son lives in Switzerland, with his father.

Blog No. 4

mirror-reflection-in-sphere2NOTE TO SELF:  1987 (minor 2013 edit – important:  1987 ‘man’ = mankind, as such)

The construction of man was undoubtedly a miracle, although one might wonder whether or not it was (initially) an act of boredom.  Had civilisation progressed as God had intended it to, there would be no cause for concern, but modern man has travelled so far along forbidden paths in his quest to discover the meaning of Life that his creation and the purpose behind it has been ignored (for years).  One wonders whether it hasn’t been conveniently deleted from his memory completely.

Man has evolved into something totally contrary to what was expected.  Man in modern society assumes that he is invincible – a story-book hero with limitless powers.  He sees himself as the epitome of perfection and will not admit the potential presence of any weaknesses.  Stated more accurately by a certain A. Grit, “Nature didn’t make us perfect, so she did the next best thing – she made us blind to our faults.”  Man’s denial of imperfection is (nearly) imperceptible, although he is surely aware that somewhere deep within his (superior) being there is something that needs correction, something that he cannot do without.  Perhaps it would be destructive to admit it – even if it was just to himself – it might taint his opinion (of himself) or crack the fragile shell of his ego.

For man to understand himself accurately, it would be necessary for him to see himself as he appears in reality.  Without much effort, he could merely stand before a mirror and study his reflection and draw his conclusions from his observations.  However, it is easy to escape unharmed by staring at your reflection in a normal mirror because the reflection is superficial and does not extend further than skin deep.  What he (actually) needs is a large two-way mirror that reveals his surface features from one side and when he moves behind the mirror to the other side he can see his inner turmoil and associated imperfections.  Only then, under constant scrutiny, would he begin to discover for himself that although he is a human being of miraculous proportions, he has also been made with his share of (inherited) insecurities and problems.
The most difficult thing for him to understand however, is that by viewing himself subjectively as well as objectively, he is in no way conceding to or admitting defeat, (but that) he is actually on the way to self-discovery.

A mirror in itself is a means by which man can unravel the mysteries within himself.  By turning to face a mirror he can unjumble the confusion inside of him and make sense of his situation in order to proceed (effectively equipped) in a ‘weird’ world of reality.  There is no doubt that man’s true reflection will not hold any substantial pleasure initially, but perhaps for him to come to terms with himself it is an effective measure.  It would surprise him to discover that instead of being the all-knowing figment of his imagination, he has become the ignoramus who stares back into his eyes so helplessly.  Man has become disillusioned and must learn to deal with his disppointment in order for him to begin again.  Maybe by participating in a venture of this nature, society will change and follow a more positive path towards the future.  Maybe, just maybe, by doing this man will revolutionise his outlook and turn out to be what was expected of him the moment the dust with which he was created, had settled.

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Blog No. 3

alice-character-new-era-59fifty-fitted_1I think Alice is still wandering around Wonderland. I don’t think she ever resurfaced. When faced with the choice of returning to this world as it is, she said, ‘No thanks very much, I think I’ll pass.’ She’s busy in an Underworld we see only in our dreams.

I wonder why there is no global body that can say ‘no’ to unacceptable happenings. Why is there not a resounding universal ‘no’ when it comes to rhino poaching, for instance? Why don’t governments stand for what is right these days? I think people need to remove political correctness from their agendas. This world needs a shake up. Syria needs peace. Gaza – is Gaza. People need to stop squabbling over land and let go of fighting for the honour of their past ‘heroes’. Who says anything ‘belongs’ to anyone in the first place? Like the way man will rape Nature’s resources and disrespect her convention. Or make rules for outer space. Space etiquette is more important than behaving like a reasonable human being on terra firma. I wonder some days just who we think we are on this planet.

I trust people with experience. I love learning, and being taught. I think we are all learning, all the time. It is a constant. As is change. To resist change is not brave. Change is what keeps the flow in this world, going. The richest languages are those evolving all the time, those in a state of flux. The same applies to people.

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Karma – Blog No. 2

karmaI wish on eyelashes.  I believe in the greater good.  I trust karma to send our lessons.  I think karma gives an excellent explanation of  being.  If you understand exactly what karma is, what it means.  What you do in your now will affect your past.  Therefore, it will affect your future.  If the past changes, the future changes.  You can bend your destiny.  Karma is searching, like everything else.  She searches for equilibrium.  Trust that.  Trust that you have a future past that is coming at you and trust that you can change it by modifying your present tense.
We are free to take whatever is given.  Take lessons, and learn.  That is our purpose.
 

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First blog about me

I write contemporary fiction.  I employ various genres in my self-expression.  I am passionate about the gothic and have an interest in metaphysics, magic, art, mysticism, alchemy and the senses.  I believe there are more than six senses.  I have three works open at the moment and spend each day creating, whether it be a small amount – or to a large degree.  I am intrigued by social dynamics and find the human condition to be the most fascinating experience.

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