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About C.J. Birch

I was born on Thursday 13th July 1972 in Harare, Zimbabwe, to an English father and a South African mother. I was christened Catherine Jane Birch and - from the outset - I've been inquisitive about most of life's elemental questions; its myriad paradoxes and unpredictable anomalies, their sources, solutions and their propensity for unmitigated change. From a very young age I was captured by the enigmatic life process, the challenge of living and what it 'means' to be alive. I spent countless invaluable hours in nature, watching the world at its work. I had a fascination for everything around me, curious about what things were, how and why they worked, what they represented in relation to one another. I began writing at the age of 5. Journals, stories and poetry, illustrations, have been a constantly evolving source of quiet self-reflection, expansive expression throughout my life. I'm fortunate to have travelled many miles, to have visited a variety of differing destinations and though I've learned a lot about life in the last 50 years, my questions about its complexities are neverending. I currently live in the south-east of England, having returned to the United Kingdom after a particularly harrowing period of 7 allegedly 'invisible' or 'non-existent' years of absolute hell in Kwazulu Natal, South Africa. I've decided to erase those memories, altogether. My 15-year-old son lives in Switzerland, with his father.

The Other Side – Blog No. 6

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The Other Side is not a place.  It might help you to realise that.  When you get there, you will know.  When you get there all things – and I mean everything – becomes patently clear.  That is what encourages me every single day and it was one of the things that blew my mind some many years ago when I first discovered it.  When those you care for, those you love, reach the other side you will know about that too, and from personal experience I will assert that that knowing is an intense feeling of contentment.  There is nothing on this planet that could possibly be as soothing as that knowing, that tangible knowledge.  One luxury of having that particular kind of knowledge is that it makes an indelible impression that does not ‘last’ – because Love never dies, it simply cannot.  Another luxury is that that resonant knowing does not need proving.  It is irrefutable proof in itself.

The other side is a place many aspire to reaching – and take notice of the absence of capitals, please.  Naturally The Other Side is not the other side.  It is this side.  If you do not know which side this side is in relation to the side for which you think you are rooting and the side you are currently backing, then you are in a tricky position of which I am not at all envious and I cannot help you.  Even if I could, I would wonder whether to bother because I abhor tricks, trickery.  I work in magic, Magick.  And take notice of the capitals, please.

In thirteen – I AM the go-between.  That you cannot – and will not – ever change.  Once you accept your fate – which I took the liberty of releasing along with mine after I scalped my reflection in that damned blood pool you hoped I would neither locate nor find myself in – you might find that your spirit will be invited into your body.  Until then, it won’t.  When your own body rejects you you have a difficult road ahead of you.  Unless you forge your own path.  Whether or not you can make a path for yourself depends on whether or not you inherited the natural ability to defy your own DNA.  Clearly a lot of people did not inherit any such ability.  In fact, using hindsight and the rather remarkable genie I bought for a couple of bucks at a garage sale held in my back yard at the onset of the Y2K it would seem that most people inherited no abilities at all.  Oh well.  So life goes.  You cannot ‘manufacture’ that natural ability.  So.  Onwards and upwards to where the air is clear and the heart-song – to which we of Love all march – is strong …

 

 

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Convenience – Blog No. 5

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In my personal experience, life is not convenient.  Neither is it a convenience.  It is a gift, given.  That is not to say that it always feels like a present, because it doesn’t.  However.  Convenience tends to save time and that is why it is useful.  Convenience is not to be confused with instant gratification, convenience is about making things easier to manage – or handle.  It is not about making things immediately available to a planet consumed by its own inability to curb its inclination to take an arm when offered a hand.  For instance, it is convenient to know that those you can trust are trustworthy.  It is a convenience having an aptitude for diversity, too, particularly when you discover that you have been labelled the ‘Corner Store’.

Change is consistent, constant.  It is not convenient – of that you can rest assured.  Change causes a great many people a great deal of angst – pain, even.  That is unfortunate.  Change is not to be feared unless you are becoming a mutant or changing into a pillar of salt, for example, in which case you were probably not supposed to turn around.  Change is inspiring in a life well-lived.  It brings new perspectives, new world views and new ways of solving persistent issues mired in the denial that has become routine daily life.  It is a privilege, though, to discover through ceaseless change how adaptable we are, how resilient our natures, and that is what makes it possible for us to transcend any reality we are handed – no matter how forcefully we are encouraged to ‘receive’ it.

A convenience store should stock everything that people usually forget to buy at other shops.  Those ‘last-minute’ items none of us can do without.  Like padkos, you know.  Food for the trip.  Or a beach towel, say.  You never know when you might be visiting the beach.  Should a convenience store sell beers?  I would say yes, definitely, but I suspect it depends on where the convenience store is situated.  A convenience store selling illicit beers in the UAE, for instance, would be liable for a hefty fine.

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Obedience – Blog No. 4

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It would be incorrect to say that I do not believe that obedience has its place.  It does.  However, it depends upon who it is that is demanding from you your acquiescence.  It also depends what their intentions are.  As is said – the road to Hell is paved with good intentions.  Pure motivation relies on one’s intuition – when to do what one has been told, and when not to.  Unless you trust implicitly those that give you instructions, do not ever act on an imperative without thinking it through for yourself.  When you can feel that an instruction has your best interests at heart you can act freely, according to your betters’ suggestions, without questioning your integrity.  That is a luxurious position in which to be.  As is understanding that the word ‘welfare’ is not synonymous with the word ‘charity’.

Children are motivated by the tone in your voice, not by the words you use.  They can hear when you honestly mean something and when you don’t, so when you don’t mean something don’t say it unless for some reason it becomes necessary for your child to hear you lie.  That may happen purely so they can discern a lie from the truth.  Like if you have nothing to compare something to you cannot state categorically whether a thing is one way or another.   It is best to be able to state any truth categorically.  I do not see the point in illuminating a truth with grey areas?  The reason for this is to ensure that the ‘cycle of Life’ with which we are familiar now becomes a framework – a firm foundation – upon which we can all build without the mistrust that has thwarted every successive attempt at transcendence.

I suspect the Catholics had a very serious reason for their ubiquitous statement:  ‘thou shalt obey’.  Unfortunately, for some, the mere mention of the word ‘obey’ rankles – and deeply.  Those are usually people who have once trusted – and obeyed – those giving them instructions only to discover on the other side that ‘obedience’ was used for the purposes of oppression, or abuse.  I understand and would accept an imperative, for example, like:  Do this or you could die (and let’s not split hairs).  I would not accept an order which translates into:  Do this because if you don’t I will keep kicking you in the head until you are dead.  That is not the way to motivate obedience.  In fact, that is probably one of the fastest ways to incite defiance.  But then, perhaps defiance is a new-age obedience?  I guess it depends on who it is that is saying what, and to whom it is that they are speaking.

 

 

 

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Ubuntu – Blog No. 3

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I understand Ubuntu to mean:  I am; because we are.  In other words, we are – each one of us – a whole human being because each one of us is a part of the community, the collective.  There is another African saying I like:  ‘It takes an entire village to raise a child’.  Indeed it does.  That is why those children kept secluded or cossetted from life in general grow up to be emotionally retarded.  Emotional retardation in an otherwise ‘fully-functioning’ human is not only a sad state of affairs, it is dangerous.  Neither empathy, nor compassion – or tolerance – are fostered where emotions are either repressed or lacking.  That is a simple fact.  You cannot in this day and age hope to encompass the entire spectrum of human experience and make it palatable to your children unless you expose first yourself to its depredations and then introduce your progeny gently to its complexities and pitfalls.  You cannot hope to bridge the gaps built into the futures of the next generation.  Evolution does not work like that.  Each successive generation IS more intelligent than those that have come before, but whether or not they are fully capable of accessing that intelligence invested in their actuality is foremost in my mind.  Like my frontal lobe is.

Tedium is almost as boring as boredom.  If I had to write a thesis it would be called ‘How To Terminate Boredom with Tedium’ but that in itself would bore me to death so I will not be writing a thesis or dying in the foreseeable future.  If that does not fit with your agenda – or the state of my longevity pisses you off – then I apologise.  And I say sorry for you.

Togetherness is to me synonymous with sharing.  You should choose to be with people you are comfortable sharing with otherwise keep yourself to you.  You will know who you are comfortable with and you will feel those who make you uncomfortable.  In that distinction – that discernment – is your destiny.  Life always was – and always will be – like that.

 

 

 

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And then there were two – Blog No. 2

Viva la Vista

05.01.2016 Tuesday

Things got a bit tight when there was only one Highlander to guard everyone’s best interests.  So they designed a Highlander that did not conform to the usual Highlander standards and that way made space for two.  :).  The thing about everyone’s best interests is that they take up an area greater than 5 cubic metres.  Like a b turns into a p.  Cupic metre.  A measure of Love?  The number of heartbeats that spell your name.  Like pain is measured in Dells.  Childbirth is around 54 Dells.  That would kill most men.  But then again – when men say they are fine, you can believe them.  I am not interested in what women say a lot of the time.   They have a way of being bitches without even trying, which is worrying for them.  And besides, a lot of them have shit for brains.  That is why their heads will wake up in the toilet, like mine did.  I pole-vaulted from the shit-pit to Timbuktu with a zephyr in my backpack and a penchant for revenge … then I gave blame up as a new year’s resolution and found my true path – which, incidentally – has been waiting for me all along.  I never give up on myself, ever.  I never turn up – actually – unless I am here myself.  So that is how I know.

I guess the alarm of Peace sounded?  Like a choir of angels … why, how did it sound to you?  Oh dear.  That isn’t good.  You train your ears to hear songs rather than bullshit.  That training does not take 3 minutes.  There is a stray half lurking around somewhere.  It is worth finding it and asking it some questions.  It might have the answers.  🙂

A UFA?  An unidentified flying arsehole.  As identified by my son, which helps.  His is a good judge of character.  Thank God.  We can all thank God when we see him next.  Lucky he can bounce.  My son, that is.  Trick?  No.  Treat.  :).  I am not into spontaneous combustion, nor do I wish to implode, so I take care when it comes to treasuring our collective soul.  I said it must be, else we wouldn’t be doing it.  DRIVE-THRU.  As in, Velcro.  For reference:  I do not require permission to speak to myself, nor do I require approval to be who it is that I am.  I approve of myself and in this fractured climate that is more than enough for me.  So.  Sayonara to shitheads, Viva to the Vista and Wakarimasu ka to Kindness.

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One, Three, Five : Seven and Nine – Blog No. 47

The Golden Ratio

22.12.2015

You don’t have to be good at mathematics to be a numerologist.  Nor do you have to be an actuarial scientist.  You only need a passion for numbers.  Numbers are magical.  Where did their shapes even come from in the first place?  And why did Roman Numerals change into the kind of numbers with which we are now familiar?  I imagine a different message probably needed sending as times modernised and it became more effective to use numbers, than numerals.  Or – the world as it was known to be came to an end and when the new futures were spliced together to recreate the sheer wonder of what had been before there was a slight miscalculation that led to an unexpected over-convergence.  When you have that kind of unexpected overlap in time the strangest things can happen.  Like food falling from the sky and turning into fishes, for instance.

The odd numbers are my favourite numbers.  Even numbers are fine when they come in pairs, otherwise they are best left to their own devices.  Odd numbers have more zeitgeist, for example, than even numbers do.  They embrace their sharp edges, their inconventional un-matchedness.  Through natural selection, an odd number cannot be superstitious or obsessive-compulsive.  They can, however, be incredibly particular when it comes to their presentation and their representation.  You cannot get an odd number wrong.  There is a reason that it is odd to begin with.  Whether it is or isn’t a good reason is not the question.  The question is whether or not the even numbers can count.

The Fibonacci Sequence is the mapping of an actual pattern, a wavelength clearly in motion, since for numbers there is no infinity.  Neither is there an end in sight for a nautilus or a golden spiral.  The ratio of one number to another – in that sequence – is perfect.  And yes, perfect does exist.  It has to in some dimensions.  Like this one in which we currently find ourselves.  For instance, if a parachute is not packed perfectly on earth, it will not open the right way for you when you need it to break your fall.  It is best to understand that, if you will delegate to another the packing of your parachute.

 

 

 

 

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One plus one equals three – Blog No. 46

21.12.2015

One plus one equals three, i.e.  1 + 1 = 3.  If you want it to make 5 you are on the wrong planet.  For that you must go to one of your other dimensions.  If you have got no other dimensions to go to, then yours’ is an uncertain future.  Mine, on the other hand, isn’t.  I suspect that is because I am under no illusions.  Neither is God.  He plays a winning hand when it comes to his own construct, which was – incidentally – a very long game of strip poker.  He has been waiting for the perfect moment to show that hand – not because he is concealing anything, but because God only works in perfect timing.  That is not because he is being unfair, or picky, it is because he knows that it is not only vital to have the right words in hand to say, it is vital to know when to say them.

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It is important to know that when the weight of the world becomes the fine line between puppet and master, God tends to get particularly fussy about accurate timing.

 

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Keep life in perspective – Blog No. 45

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Finding reasons to treasure your life is one of the best ways to ensure that you are capable of keeping it in perspective.  When perspective spins out – which it can do from time to time – it is fair warning that your treasury is nearing empty.  No matter who you are, an emptying treasury is not a good sign.  The way to manage a deficit – when you become aware of it – is to deal with it, for starters.  That means looking first at the problem, and then solving it.  There are times when an awareness of this nature is valuable, even though it can be painful.  It is a stark reminder of what an epic task it is to fill our treasuries in the first place.

Life was created to be lived.  It can be a beautiful experience, but you have to be open to it.  Open means open.  It does not mean 80:20.  It does not mean 50:50.  It does not mean 180°.  It means a full circle, 360°.  In other words, it requires total acceptance from you, the liver of it, the giver of it.  If you cannot find it in yourself to accept the life you have chosen for yourself to live – and a very important distinction to be made here is that YOU have all chosen your lives, i.e. you are neither random happenings and nor are your projected experiences – then you are not only betraying your pure self, you are contributing to the façade behind which a truer humankind once thrived.   The understanding of that particular point is an important lesson in accountability.

Keeping life in perspective means keeping yourself in perspective, too.  That can also be tricky, given that most people have no clue who they are or what they want to be.  However, that is not the biggest problem and can be overcome with some self-discipline and a bit of forethought, hindsight and intuition that you can trust.  If you cannot trust your own intuition, find someone whose intuition you can rely upon.  You cannot go through life being entirely mistrustful, it is important at times to take people at their word, whatever the consequences.  When you believe that a person will honour their word, they will often be more inclined to do so.  Of course you can learn about being too trusting and you can learn about extortion and racketeering, but those kinds of things you need only learn once.  Once – in that context – is enough.

 

 

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When it’s a matter of necessity – Blog No. 44

27.11.15

There are times when there is no time to worry about counting the hours.  The hours are not the problem.  It’s the minutes that matter.  Kind of like quality, not quantity.  When those times come it makes sense to work out the difference between wants and needs.  Wanting something enough – like wishing with a pure heart – can sometimes bring to you what you desire, but there is no guarantee.  Wants are considered greedy, by some, it would seem.  They needn’t be seen that way.  Like wanting world peace – that is a worthy want, as is wanting food in your stomach every day.  Needs are considered more urgent than wants, usually, but this is not necessarily the every case.  I’d prefer to want world peace now than to be in a position where we NEED world peace now.  There is a distinct difference.

It is important to establish need priorities.  Remember, there are fundamental priorities that you perhaps neglect – like finding a place every single day where you can simply sit for a bit and feel safe.  Or perhaps giving yourself plenty of space to maintain your dream(s), to see another side to your life and build with it.  Those are basic needs and should be first on your priority list.  Once you have tended to your necessities you are in a better position to tend to the rest of everything that needs tending these days.

There are too many people on this planet whose needs are not being met.  What do they say?  When you take care of your employees, your employees will take care of your customers.  I think that should be the basic mission statement of every single company on this planet that considers itself to be a part of the ‘service industry’.  If you cannot provide the service for which you are charging people your business should be shut down and you should be blacklisted – end of story.  People have become too accepting of a lethargy in the marketplace, in life.  Like nothing or no one is worth any effort – that life is a chore.  That is not a good mindset – so make it change.

If you cannot be bothered to do whatever it is that you do to the best of your ability, then do not do it at all.

 

 

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I think I thought I am – Blog No. 43

24.11.15

Punctuate that.  See what every variation means to you.  Then describe how each meaning feels in your context.  Like you find the same 4 chords in most of the songs you can bring to mind.  And because some things do not run according to ABCDE, it does not mean they are chaotic.  Shuffle the letters around now and again and you get an interesting new perspective which teaches you to question.  In order to question, you first need to think – not to open your mouth the minute a thought pops into your head.  Manage your thinking, choose your thoughts.  If you know the answer, don’t ask stupid questions.  If you don’t – or are confused – then ask for sure.  Like asking whether you may or may not gives you at least a 50% chance of getting a yes.  If you don’t ask, then it is 100% no.  Those are good odds when you have both nothing – and everything – to lose.

Whether you are or are not is not a matter of public opinion, neither is it relative.  You are when you decide to be.  You do not require the approval of any family that lives vicariously through you, for instance.  You do not need anyone’s permission to be true to yourself.  Ever.  That is your gift to yourself, your authenticity.  Those who will inhibit your personal growth are neither authentic friends nor are they remotely trustworthy.  Their agendas are their own and can therefore be dispensed with.  Any hindrance to self-actualisation along the path you forge for your own feet must be viewed with suspicion.  And those that will heap the shame of ages upon the new generations need a fat slap.  Inexplicable shame is painful on every level, and it is confusing.  It stunts growth and it damages the innocence of children.  No child needs to carry for life lies that are not theirs’ to process.

A work ethic is an important aspect of yourself to foster, and nurture, whether or not you get paid or abused for what you do.  It speaks of your self-respect.  It speaks of your understanding that nothing in this life comes for nothing.  Karma sees to it that what you give of your capacity – however you define your capacity – you get.  If you are an advocate of Giveology, you will be a recipient of Getology.  Like chickens lay eggs, eggs do not lay chickens.  Developing a work ethic is a fairly personal process, but it is important to know that we are initially guided by the work ethic of those close to us, those that raise us.  The way you work should reflect your ambition, your competitive edge (without one you go nowhere) and your desire to build the kind of life you know you will be most inspired by.  Inspiration makes the impossible, possible.  It feeds the soul.  It allows you to persevere no matter your circumstance.  Stimulating your self is vital if you wish to get where you know you must go.  And if you do not know where you must go you need to find out what stimulates you.

 

 

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