I was imagining a world that existed like this:
Each person’s wealth – that has been gained from ‘earning a living’ – is converted into tokens redeemable only by the ‘earner’, in an attempt to demonstrate who has what in this world. You carry around a bag with your tokens in it, showing how ‘valuable’ you are as a community asset. Then – surprise, surprise – the air you breathe becomes costly. You have to insert tokens into a local ‘breathing machine’ in order to have fresh air pumped – in a puff – into the atmosphere so that all living things can draw breath. At first there are communal machines – anyone can put tokens in to make sure that we can all breathe. Everyone does so with enthusiasm. We all have tokens, well, hopefully we have all earned a few, and we use them as is necessary. Those with tokens put them willingly in – in a fairly democratic fashion, no doubt. I put one – you put one. Etc.
Then the majority starts to run short of tokens. The air is getting tight, difficult to breathe. Like molasses. Those with big bags of tokens begin to become selfish. They resent putting extra tokens into the ‘breathing machine’ – despite the fact that they have plenty extra – when there are others that no longer ‘contribute’ to the air everyone breathes. The ones with tokens believe the ones without tokens should suffocate. They should die because they did not earn enough tokens to keep them alive. They believe this, despite the fact that they – and those ‘lazy time-wasters’ – share the same breathing space. The point is: without the ‘time-wasters’ – the dreamers, the believers, the lovers – the elite and their breathing would not even be a problem that needed contemplating on this planet.
Then – considering all – I came to the conclusion that human beings, being what they are, would never have condoned the manufacture of communal ‘breathing machines’. The capitalist mindset that manipulates the actions of the too-wealthy elite – those ‘with’ money – would have ensured at the outset that only individual ‘breathing machines’ were made, those that were built to the individual’s specifications. I am quite certain that those with enough tokens and their bespoke ‘breathing machines’ would be quite happy to watch with a ‘dejected’ sigh those without tokens who fall by the roadside and expire. I mean – if you are wealthy and well-connected you cannot be expected to save every piece of crap lying around on the planet, can you?
Bleeding is all very well. It has been practiced for centuries. It has traditionally been seen as a kind of purging, a ridding the body of contamination. Contamination is a big word. It should not be thrown around without respect for the fact that without the de-contaminant the contamination will spread like wildfire. That is the way with disease. In an equation that looks the way that does, I would suggest that the best place to find yourself is inside the de-contaminant. A contamination is a negative. A de-contamination is a positive – and positives give you wings. Negatives tend to get you nowhere.
Bleeding is not the only way to find out that you – and others – are alive. There are quite a few alternatives. Now and again I choose search and salvage over destroy and discard. It yields the most remarkable truths – perhaps truths that are truer than those extracted using force or manipulation. This exercise in restraint takes extraordinary self-control. If you should be in any doubt about that you are wrong. Should you try your true self on or take your reality to task, you will then understand the reason(s) for your being and the need for total exposure when it comes to yourself and the speaking of your truth.
Truth – in part – is our life-blood. Denial of the truth is like a clotted artery. A cluttered socket. Before truth can bleed out – which at this pace will take a million tomorrows – the clots need removing and a wound needs opening. Once the clots have been removed and the truth has bled out, the coagulant will step in and seal the wound. I was once told that open wounds tell love stories to the sky. I believed it, not because I am naïve or gullible – but because it is true. It always was.
If you cannot be bothered to spend time living your life to its fullest – your fullest – then perhaps you should surrender yourself to the powers that be and call your existence quits. Perhaps you should relinquish control of yourself and your sources and accept that you are missing the point of life. There is no excuse for not living, it is an essential state of being. You will know how it is to be truly alive and kicking. You will know because you can feel it when you are in your element. Your senses tell you all about it. Should you find yourself wishing to be present and counted in your everyday, then take the time to make that happen. You need to be assertive when it comes to managing your time, your days. You are who says what happens when, and how. That is your power. Do not waste it.
Living for another is not a wise idea. You cannot realistically bring yourself to an optimum place when your existence is defined by the toings and froings of another person. That attitude is defeatist. You need to live first for yourself – you get one life in the embodiment in which you currently find yourself and that actuality should not be overlooked. You should not overlook yourself at all. Living for yourself is not selfish. It is necessary. When you find your truth and you subscribe to it wholeheartedly you will discover your purpose, and once you discover your purpose you will understand that your life is not given to you for you to farm it out. Farm in-house, not out-house. Do not try to be for another – that never works.
Living – in the cliché – is loving. And it is. Should you know how to properly live, you will know how to properly love. That is a given fundamental. If you are not sure how to live properly then perhaps train yourself in that discipline. It is a definite discipline and you will get better at it the more you practice. Do not fear repercussions for living to your fullest. There will be none. The universe will support every attempt you make to be something in yourself. Embrace that reality and get busy living – as Buddha said: ‘… the problem is, you think you have time…’
Please understand that without closure you cannot move forwards. Closure is the first step towards repair. If you do not care to repair the damages done to you then I guess yours is a pretty pointless existence. It is vital to recognise damages done, and it is vital to assimilate those damages so that you can get yourself into a position where you can work your future without the drag of your past. You are not in the past, stop living there. You are in the now. Your future is waiting patiently for you to wake up and claim it.
Should you be struggling to find closure after the death of a loved one, remember that their death has opened doors for you. A death always does. I would suggest viewing the body of the departed, if such is possible, before you say your farewells. Seeing the lifeless corpse is not something to be afraid of. It can do nothing to you. It is dead. The death is easier to accept when you are faced with its reality. Should you be unable to find closure after the death of a love relationship, remember that its demise came for a reason. You cannot hold on to a dead love. Funny, you cannot hold on to a live love, either. Love will not be held down. It has its prescribed work to do and it is not sentimental about your inability as humans to treasure its actuality. It is alive, and it moves. Head to head, heart to heart. You fail to appreciate its gift to this world and it leaves. There is nothing static about Love. Nothing.
Teach children about closure. Encourage them to speak about their feelings. Be interested in what they find hurtful, stressful. Listen to a child’s heartbreak, should such happen to your child and it is able to explain it to you. To find closure you need to do personal work. It doesn’t just happen. You have to be brave enough to distress yourself with memories, feelings, disappointments. Really. It is time to be realistic about the state of your internal affairs. 2014 is for progress. Tidy up.
When you take the time to understand that there is a difference between magic and magick you will be able to appreciate the wonder of both. You will find that if you invest time in appreciating the magick that is happening all around you all day, every day, you will become properly alive inside yourself. This is not a scary prospect – it is like a caterpillar in a chrysalis. You will become the best you are meant to be. Do not ever forget that this takes due process. Becoming your best is a long journey. If you have stamina you should undertake this journey. If you do not – that is a shame. You are missing out.
You have to show gratitude for Nature’s magick in order that she allows its properties to transform you, your life. You must appreciate her mastery. She is very, very adept. Treasure that there is no other that will understand you like she does. She is you. From this you can draw comfort. You have no need to hide from her your ‘sins’. She understands the nature of man. And she understands very well the nature of woman, too. She is familiar with wiles and manipulation. She does not employ either method in her operation but she accepts that others, do. That there is yet conflict between the sexes about who is Alpha what is not helpful. There is always an Alpha female and an Alpha male in Nature’s equation. Always. The energy of both. Bringing together – in harmony – those energies, is where she is headed. That her work along the way is changing the lay of the land is a reality we should really learn to accept without raising too much objection. Her motivation is pure. She is already everywhere that matters.
Magic itself is black, white. Coloured. Musical. Cinematic. There is no grey area where magic is concerned. Magic works. Do not for one moment doubt that fact. Magic trades secrets in deep, dark belief. Trust. You know how a strong belief can save your life? Or kill you? Easy. If you are interested in the at-work aspects of magic and its happenings you must visit voodoo and you must visit ritual, you must hear your heartbeat and you must suspend disbelief for a period long enough to give your inner cynic a chance to keep quiet and learn. The cynic is entitled to its opinion but it is not invited to share it. When you next see love in action – and this is not hard to see if you know where to look – know that magick is happening, right there in front of your eyes. Magick comes to us each when we are primed, open, and ready to receive it.
Open. Receive it.